You remember telephone back in junior high where the message got garbled up? This whole thing has gotten garbled up. I only meant it as a simple political difference of why I don't like Barack Obama and why I won't support him. Now, most of the advice was good, the only thing I don't like it being called a biggot. I don't believe in condeming anyone to hell. If you don't want to be a Christian, that if fine, you always can chose whether or not you want to believe something. It's just what I believe, and because of this, it is my belief system. Because of thsi my beliefs are going to be different than those under different beliefs (religious or not). I told Sam a couple things hurt my feelings, and she went off and e-mailed somebody when I had no clue she'd done it. She told me she'd get back to me on some questions I had and I admit I said some stuff hurt my feelings. However, I never said anyone was hateful, Godless, or should have the Bible beat over their heads. I don't believe I should deal with non-Christians that way. I disagree with them, but I don't believe in labeling anyone. Now, I had no idea Sam had said anything to anybody until Mandy told me. I posted on Sam's wall today that this whole situation had blown out of hand and blown up big time, more than I ever meant it to. Sam posted back that "hateful" comment. I only believe someone is hateful if they label me a biggot for my beliefs. Or they call me a war-monger. If they say "I think your beliefs don't compute" or something like that, it's not hateful. Now, why I don't support Barack; many of his beliefs don't mesh with mine and he's too left for me. I have a right not to support his beliefs just like liberals have a right to say they don't believe in conservatives. Now, I was just venting that I wished late-night comedians would lampoon both sides instead of conservatives. Now, about my anxiety disorder: I am getting treatment for it and the depression as well as several more issues and it's a long road. Now I feel I need people who have some basic beliefs as me. They don't need to be Christian, but they need to be in the same ballpark, but any boyfriend needs to be Christian, because it's an equally yoked clause.

No one really checked with me whether I feel this way. I don't feel she's hateful and I don't feel she's ever called me crap. I don't feel that way. I feel we're very different people who have had very different lives. I feel these very different outlooks on life make us butt heads, big time. I feel we'll probably never find any common ground, but I never intended for her to be abused. I feel that I should have my beliefs respected. Tolerance means you believe in that person as far as they will let you. I could respect someone who's extreme as far as they will let me before they cross my line. Tolerance does not mean a free-for-all. I do not feel it was right that my friend said these things when all I meant was to vent. Had I known she would go off, then I would never have told her.  

Honestly, I made that post when I was frustrated at my sister because of this drug thing and how stressed out it has me. It stressed me out and I wasn't clear-headed.I was also worried about my Mom losing her job. Anyway, this whole thing has me upset and frustrated It's the second time this "he-said" game has gotten out of hand. This happened with Billy in my junior year because Billy would tell her stuff and then he'd say she said stuff and oh crap it was horrible. I wish I had her e-mails so I can refute her claims. I admit, I have said things I didn't mean out of anger or sadness, and Sam tends to remember that and use it against me, or other, when convient. So, if she said something I said in say ninth grade how can I remember that? I don't believe people who are non-Christian are bad people or that they are moraless, I just believe their standards on judging moral behavior are different and thus what constitues morals. That's a whole different can of theological worms. Anyway, look, I hate that I can't even rebuke things I have no idea someone else said. Andrea is not a hateful person, nor do I believe she's said I was crap. She disagrees with me on several things, that does not make her a bad person or anything of the sort. I am sorry Sam did this without my knowledge. In the future I will refrain from telling her anything outside my family circle and refrain from political debates.  I really wish I could figure out where Sam got the crap comment. I only really write for school, and most of that stuff has nothing to do with political arena. I told Sam that I did feel the biggot comment was unwarrented. But anyway, I don't feel I'm the only conservative here, just in the school. Generally, most schools are liberal as are most professors. It just gets frustrating sometimes, was all I meant. Most of the people who write in the paper are liberal, but most reporters do tend to be more liberal than not. I've never found anyone who is a conservative student here, but that doesn't meant they don't exist. I just am sorry that I every told Sam my feelings were hurt. I am sorry that any accusations were made that are totally mean and uncalled for.

 And I am sorry for complaining about my sister, it just frustrates me the whole thing the whole thing of her doing drugs and she refuses to see what she's doing or get help. That she is ruining her family and her life. I shouldn't write when my anger is so red-hot but I am tired of her lies and deceit, of her bending my mother into giving her money and generally ripping my family apart. I have to worry about my niece being taken in by social services, about her being thrown in prison. I just worry what I will do once my mother reaches retirement age. I will have to support her, somehow, and I'm not sure how. I have had all this stewing in my mind and then this whole political season came about and things sort of compounded. I feel a little disenfranchized because yes, there is a Republican canidate, but the main issues we disagree on. That is not for here, but I was feeling a bit tweaked that the there really didn't seem to be a canidate for me I could back this election.

Anyway, I hope that explains some things. I can't explain everything without proof of what was written, but I have tried from what I have gathered.

Well, I saw this on Britt's livejournal, so I figured I'd join the fray. Give me topics to name my five favorite things, and I'll answer. I haven't done a lot today, except watch the Dateline special with my mom. There was a tiny storm here. It didn't do anything other than tease though.

There was a really bad wreck here last night. It was about ten when I heard like three cop cars race down my street. I heard a helicopter overhead to. I found out there had been a rollover, and it killed one person. It was out in the canyon, and I figure it was some teens either drinking or racing, maybe both. My sister went out to investigate it after we saw half the police department and ambulance head out there. Pretty scary stuff.

Why is it cats always hack up hairballs right when I'm going to sleep!!!

This post regards rude, obnxious idotic hicks who are the stupidest people on the planet. I have never, and I mean NEVER encountered an audience so stupid and rude as I did tonight. They kept going in and out, in and out, smacking on popcorn, talking, and RECORDING the movie on their cells. I should have turned those stupid teenagers butts in. It takes a lot to push my peeve button, but when it's pushed, its' gone, it's spewed over into the toxic zone, you're going to hear it. If you pay $7 bucks for a movie, sit down and watch it. I don't care if you eat, but be quiet about it. You can whisper occasionally, just dont' explain the whole damn comic book background to your wife. Laugh, but only at what's funny. And sit, damn it sit! It's not that hard, just sit in the chair. Turn off your stinking cell phone, and behave. You're not three years old!! STUPID REDNECK HICKS!!!

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Heh, yeah I am in a very good mood today, I owe Andrea one for facebook. A HUGE one for facebook. I have DSL and you should be afraid, very afraid. So, I heard something on Showbiz Tonight about a female superhero. I was all excited thinking they'd announce something about the Wonder Woman movie. She's my favorite superhero. Well, it turned out to be something about Batwoman. Batwoman, how lame a superhero is that? It's like a knockoff of Batman. Like Supergirl and all those lameo heroes. Eh, anyway I'm reading the Da Vinci Code and have decided I have a major crush on Robert Langdon. I luff historians! Sophie and Robert! WOOT! I saw X-men three and loved it! I was sad because they killed my Scott! NOOOO SCOTT! *sniff* I am also now into Mystique/Magneto pairings. I seem to take on a new one every now and again. Josh (the creator of Serenity) is going to be writing for Wonder Woman! I know he'll do a good job because hey Firefly exists! ( I found a code on Mythbusters! )

So, once again I have failed to update my LJ (isn't that ironic? LOL) lately. I watched the 100 Funniest Movies and disagreed with Animal House being funny. I personally like Annie Hall and When Harry Met Sally better. Now that's classic funny comedy! Anyhow, I went to visit with my brother and sister-in-law yesterday. He's so much better! The color is back in his cheeks, his voice is back to normal, and he's bouncy again. Just in time for his birthday! It's also time for X-3! Whoo! I love X-men! We had a power outage on my street for a couple hours which was weird. It was out for two hours and it was beginning to get hot in the house. I had to reset everything, and yeah reprogramming a satillite is a pain in the back end. My niece just got out of school, so we'll be having her over a lot more often. I went to a graduation party with my mom. They had food, and not a lot else. ( Read more... )

Well, I finally have my computer up and running. I have DSL, and am being careful about things. You know no use flinging myself out without a firewall, anti-virus software (EZ trust), and anti-spyware, and pop up blockers. I'm getting really tired here tonight. I am trying to condition myself to sleep at night, and not during the day. Anyway, school finished last week. I found out my Health grade from WebCT, an A! I won't know my final grades in everything else for a couple weeks. Which is cool with me. I know I passed everything. I already am planning my next semester. It's not going to be easy since the Psychology teacher went off and got married. I might have to take that one online. I'll figure it out.( Read more... )

So, I am officially finished with my finals! I just got finished taking my Health and Wellness final, and yeah my hand is cramping again. I got that yesterday when I was writing my History final. My hand started to go into weird spasms, I don't think it's used to writing so much in one settting! But, all I have to do is turn in my Anthropolgy final and I will be done until August! Whoo hoo. Guys, I now have a new computer and in a week will have DSL access!!! Aren't you happy for me? I'm happy as heck! My mom woke me up and said it was C-day. I though she said D-day, and I was like, when did we decide we were going to invade the beaches of Normandy?? LOL ( Read more... )

List your six favorite TV shows:

1. Inuyasha
2. Lost
3. Nancy Grace
4.Teen Titans
5.The Practice
6. Judging Amy

Not a lot going on with me, feeling a bit scourned, but that's all right.

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